When you get to a certain age you find that you just stick with what you know, where you feel safe and it is easy. I was plodding along and when everything changed I think subconsciously I began to try new things, and I am really enjoying it! You kind of get stuck in a rut. I have been thinking a lot about this recently and wondered why I have been so open to new things. I think subconsciously again I feel like if I don’t try it now something may happen again and I will be missing out on so much. I don’t really understand how my thoughts have changed so much. Food is one of the areas that I feel open to try new things. Perhaps before I was stuck in a rut about what I ate and was cautious to try something new as I would not like it. I realise now that it really doesn’t matter if I don’t like it. I just won’t eat it anymore. I have found though that every new thing that I have tried I have liked. No one has told me to do this so I think it is just a symptom of a life or death experience. After three and half years I am just now realising what happened and how bad it was. In a way I could look at it as it as being a good thing that happened to me, but I think I am the only person who can really say that. I was watching a Bond film the other night and the title stuck – you only live twice. I looked up what this phrase means, I Googled it, and ‘it means’, “You only live twice. Once when you are born. And once when you look death in the face.” This is a great phrase as it feels that this can understand why I am doing things so differently now and trying new things continuously. Of course in my day to day life the people around me have not had this experience, they are, if I say it again, stuck in a rut. I get frustrated when people don’t want to try something different. I know this is not wrong of them to think that as the ‘old’ me would of been the same if I was asked. But the ‘old’ me has gone and the new me really enjoys trying new things. Why not try sometime new, you never know you might like it.
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