The last few weeks I have been thinking about things that happened to me around this time last year. It is strange as this time last year I was dreading September, the whole month. I was focusing so much on what happened the year before in September, I lost focus and had a mental health breakdown. It is hard to write about this but I do understand that writing about it helps not just me but other people. I don’t think I have written about this before. I was self harming, which to this day don’t really understand why. I guess I need to talk to someone about this but just at the point when I needed to ask someone about this they decided to let go of me. Push me off to the mental health services were are pretty useless. So a year on I really don’t understand what happened and why. It is not really a subject that you can just sit down with someone and talk about. I am seeing my counsellor tomorrow and may try to talk about it then. I guess now that it is August, I am just thinking about last year again. This year it is not September, it is August that I have been dreading. Now that it is here I just need to think positive. My sister says it is stupid to worry about the past as you can’t change it. I can’t change it but I can wish it never happened.
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