Sleep

Trying to got get to sleep but this is just going around in my head so have to write it down. I want to say all this to Alice but she just doesn’t want to listen to me at the moment.  The old me has died and I have to get used to the new me. It’s not easy, it is very hard and that is why I had my blip, my self harming, my suicidal thoughts. I am thankfully past that bit now but is still hard. I know I should say all of this to my counsellor but I have to get it out of my head so I can sleep. How do I start trying to get used to the new me? Who can I ask, it is so confusing. The days ahead seem so boring. The one person I want to be my friend just doesn’t want to listen to me. Just can’t see a future  anymore, my life is crumbling. It would be nice to think someone was reading this.