Frustrated

I have found now that I use this word all the time. All the time I say this is frustrating or I used to know how to do this it is so frustrating. I need to make a list of all the things that frustrate me now but that would be a long list. I can’t remember being so frustrated by things before I was unwell but there are many more things to be frustrated about now. I do also realise that I thinking this is probably wrong, as someone has said to me ‘you are alive’. But it is so frustrating to have to learn how to do things now that were so natural to me two years ago. It is so frustrating to begin to type sentence and by the end to have completely forgotten what you wanted to say, which has just happened! I know I need to try to focus on all the good things that have happened which outweigh all the bad things. I guess it is just natural to focus on all the bad things. All the bad things frustrate me. I can’t do this, I can’t do that. But I suppose now I am learning new things. But this causes frustration as well as this is hard and it is hard even for me to understand why. I use the nice word frustration but this is just a nice word for angry.