Cancelled or postponed

My plan for this year was to do lots of things. This year I planned to do lots of interesting things but that has been curtailed by the virus. My head is full of things that I want to do and I had started to book things up and plan. I was looking forward to year where I wouldn’t have to worry about things. My life was leveling up and I was ready, I am ready to carry on with my new life. Now we are all stuck at home and we can’t do anything. In the last few weeks I have been receiving lots of emails that inform me that things I have booked up for this year have been cancelled or postponed. I know I can’t do anything about this it is out of everyone’s control but it is so frustrating. Some of the things have only been postponed but a couple of things have been cancelled. I suppose I just have to add them to my list of things to do again. I have an urge in me to do everything and it is hard to try and find new things to do that are not just interesting but things I can do at home. I have a feeling that I will revisiting my former love of cooking. I say it is a former love as I don’t have the urge anymore to cook. Cooking at home won’t really inch the scratch of doing new and interesting things. Cooking also seems to irritate me as I just can’t do it at the same level anymore. I know I am just putting myself down, it’s easy to do. Having things in the diary helps me to get out of the house and forget the worries that I might have. I guess I just have to look forward to everything that has been postponed, hopefully they will be rearranged. I was just starting to arrange something that will be amazing but that will have to be postponed until next year.