18 Months

Today it is 18 months since I had my heart attack, cardiac arrest and brain injury. I have said it before and I will say it again, my life has changed from that date. I keep thinking about this day and what happened to me. But of course I can remember anything. I have been thinking as well about the last 18 months. The things that I have done and the things that I haven’t done. I have met so many different people, good and bad. I keep thinking about the night it happened and really want to remember it. It is frighting not being able to remember, as if it happens again will I know. It is stupid to want to know how painful it was. I guess I am thinking too negatively about it and I just need to look at the positive things from the last 18 months. I guess the most positive I have done is going back to work. It never crossed my mind that I wouldn’t. I know that most people don’t go back to their original workplace after brain injury. It is really hard and horrible but I need to stick at it. I don’t think I would or want to work anywhere else. I was talking to someone in a hospital a while ago and he said that I could be a hospital porter! I think my ability is greater than that. It has been a real hard 18 months but I can’t believe that it will get any better. I need to keep meeting all these nice people.