Is this it?

I have been thinking about this for a while now and I am trying to get to sleep so I am writing it down to help me get to sleep. I look at things that have happened in the last two years, some have been bad and some have been good. I say I used to live a boring life but now life is so much more interesting. I have met some many new great people and done things that I wouldn’t of thought of doing. But sometimes I few quite low when looking back at these things. Like I have said everyday something different would happen. People use the term ‘new normal’ and I see these times as me learning my new life, in my ‘new normal’. This has been a somewhat positive time for me and even though it has been hard, I have enjoyed it. Learning my new life, a life where I am living with a brain injury, The thing that has been making me feel really low though is the thought, it this it now? Get on with it. Has all the readjustment happened and is all the support I have been given coming to an end? The thing is, I don’t feel like I am ready yet for this to be it. In one of the sessions I go to we have talked about acceptance which I think is really important. You need to accept the person you have become before you can move on. This is hard especially as I still don’t really understand what happened to me. I want to ask so many questions but there is just no one to answer them. In the last couple of years I seemed to have something to work my way towards and getting through, it was an achievement. I don’t feel like there is anything left for me to work towards and this makes me think all the time ‘is this it’. There are still things that I want to do but I will have to wait until next year to do them.

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