What do people think?

I know I shouldn’t do this but all the time walk around at work and think to myself, do they they think that I am unhealthy or is someone with health problems. I am sure that some people do as I have had a lot of things going on in the recent years and the not so recent years. It’s funny though as I never think of myself as being a person with health problems. I guess this is a good thing, it keeps me going, gets me out of bed every morning. I have worked where I work for nearly twenty years but I have to say that I have probably only been at work for about fifteen of them and have spent the rest off sick. I am so lucky to have supportive and patient work colleagues. I have been unlucky with my health. I seem to get things at a young age. You hear all the times how to say healthy, eat well, don’t be overweight, don’t smoke. I have never been overweight and don’t come home from work everyday and pour myself a drink. All the time I am trying to find the answer to things that have and are happening to me. Unfortunately most of the time the answers are just not there. I realise that the way I have lived my life has not been wrong but I have the need to change things but I don’t know what. Going back, I don’t really think that I have been unwell. My Mum laughed when I said this last week and I think it was unfair. I don’t get minor things, like a cold I just get the major things. I guess it is good to not know how ill I was but it may help. I worry about what people think but what do I think?