Happy

It might seem crazy what I am about to say but I am really happy! Sorry to steal the words of a much loved song but I am really feeling happy at the moment. I realised this when I woke up the other day. Some times when I am laying in bed I would close my eyes and imagine that I was in my old bedroom and nothing had changed. The other day I did this and I thought to myself, no don’t do this as I don’t think I want to go back. My life is good now and I need to move forward. I like laying in my bed now in my new bedroom so I don’t need to imagine anything anymore as I am where I want to be at the moment. That made me feel really happy. I know life for everyone is different now and we are kind of in limbo not knowing what will happen. This doesn’t make me happy but it is easier to go through it as I know that everyone now is having the same problems now not just me. I told my Mum about when I was in bed and that made her really happy and helped to show her that I am moving on. This strange time has really grounded me in my new life. When I moved house last year I really didn’t want to be involved with anything and a lot of the unpacking remained. Over the last couple of weeks I have gone through all my boxes and I now feel that I have moved and where I live is my house now. I have found loads of things that I forgot I had and have been able to put them around the home. I have been able to say goodbye to my old life and I feel now that I can move on. There may be more changes ahead but I feel that I am ready now for what may be thrown at me. Because I’m happy!